Trying to find accommodation somewhere else

I have been trying to find accommodation elsewhere.

I have now got a letter from my doctor stating that I have multiple chemical sensitivities and that the situation in my home is affecting my health.

There is an agency here who can provide housing for people in dire need (like me) as it is really unaffordable to try to live on your own, as rents are so expensive and I cant live with other people because of my severe allergies.

After I saw the doctor yesterday (Friday) afternoon, I went to see the people at the agency, but the woman who I saw before wasn't available, as she is on holidays, so I asked the person at reception if he could get someone else for me because I wanted to see them in private. I wanted to not only tell them about the allergies (that I couldn't live in my present situation because my brother uses products which affect me and that I couldn't go to a refuge because people would be using products that would make me equally allergic), but I also wanted to show the person the video of the violence and abuse that happened here on Tuesday night, when my family were attacking me.

The guy at reception was young and very cute. He remembered me from the last time I was there and again, he was equally helpful - very sweet! He got his team leader out and she took me into a private room where I explained it all to her. I then let her see the video of the violence and she just kept shaking her head - it's horrendous to watch and I cant believe I have been subjected to that crap all my life. She told me that there was not much she could do at this moment (it was late on Friday afternoon and Monday is a holiday) and asked me to call her on Tuesday afternoon and she would see what she could do to try to get me into housing sooner.  I had already been there and I was on the top of the list to get some form of housing (as I had a letter from someone else to tell them about the abuse and violence), but I was not on their priority list, which is for people in really dire need. I think now with the letter from my doctor about my allergies and this video proof, it means I may get something sooner. God I hope so!

Mother is resolutely in denial that her son is a vindictive person

The idiot LayZ boy walks up and down the hallway and starts whistling in this insane way, just to make sure I know he's walking past. He does it to try to annoy me, but I don't react to him, yet he still does it. In-fucking-sane!

His mother told him to stop whistling while he's in the house, that there's no need for it, yet he continued to do it. She told him again to stop. He responded with: "That's how I whistle". She didn't ask him why he was whistling, she told him she wanted him to stop it, but he wont listen because he knows there are no consequences to his actions.

And the whistling is a just a minor thing he does. When they're not home, he starts banging on the hallway walls, just on the other side of my bedroom, so I can hear him, just to try to annoy me. He starts running up and down the hallway, banging on the wall on the other side of my bedroom, like a total lunatic.  He does this to try to antagonise and upset me. And no matter how little I react (I don't even come out of my room - I either turn up the volume on the TV louder or do nothing), the nutcase continues to do it. He gets bored after a while, but it's like his vindictiveness and viciousness gives him energy to be a total lunatic!

Hi mother on the other hand, wont believe he does things on purpose to antagonise and upset me, so this gives him a free pass to continue it. And when she does say anything minor to him, he acts up even more (like a freaking 5 year old child) and she gives up, so he knows how to get around her so she stops saying anything to him. And because his mother wants to deny that he does anything on purpose and wants to deny he has major mental problems, she lets him get away with his obnoxious behaviour.

Idiots all of them!

Insane family who is so totally in denial about me

This family is sick in the head, all three of them - mother, step-father and brother - they simply cant handle anything that has to do with me.

They keep telling me that since I am sick with these allergies/sinus problems, I am a total burden on them, that they cant do what they want because I am here. That they cant have people over all the time like they want, because I get sick (bullshit, they still have people over with their perfumes and I get sick) and that "everyone knows I am allergic" (as if that is something to be ashamed about, like what the hell?) and that they cant paint the doors because I am here and that I need to get out of their house because they cant handle me here.

I am overwhelmed with their compassion and care. So overwhelmed that they have such compassion for my illness. Geez! What total obnoxiousness. They act like it's my fault I am sick, that its my fault I have allergies and that I can control them. So absolutely ignorant it's just unbelievable.

Every time I try to reason with them, it ends in an argument because my mother ignores me. She just keeps on doing what she's doing, pretending that I am not there, as if ignoring me will make me go away. She doesn't want to accept that her son does things on purpose to hurt me.

Last night he put on all these perfumed products and he did so this morning again, but hey, it doesn't affect any of them, so who cares that I am that allergic and I get sick. I am irrelevant to them.

Finally after crying to her, telling her to stop ignoring me, to take away his products and replace them with other stuff, she finally went to see LayZ boy and of course he denied using anything and of course she believes him. Of course, because obviously my symptoms are all in my head, of course. Of course, I haven't been officially diagnosed with severe allergy symptoms, of course my immune system is not on high alert every day, of course I am not sick, of course.

LayZ boy comes out and tells them that he didn't do anything. Yet he's lying again. Then he tells me to "fuck off" and that he can "do whatever he wants to do" that "I cant make him change anything" and again he tells me to "fuck off". This is all in my parents presence, but of course they say nothing to him, because as far as they are concerned he is allowed to be as obnoxious as he wants to be to me without any consequences for his vile actions. LayZ boy is so cut that his mother told him not to wear his products, so to antagonise me for her telling him this, he purposely puts every product he owns on his face and body - because he knows it will make me ill. How fucked up is that? And then he lies about it. But of course, that is okay. Who cares if I get sick. Definitely not any of them. Who cares that LayZ boy is a vindictive asshole who does thing on purpose to hurt me physically - who cares about that?

Bloody hell, these idiots make me so sick! Figuratively and literally!

Then the idiot step-father started his rant about how everything is my fault. That because I am sick with severe allergies he cant have people here, cant paint doors, cant do this, cant do that - as if my allergies restrict his life in some major way. He forgets to recognise that I wasn't here for months on end, that he could have painted whatever he wanted then, but he doesn't like the truth, he likes to blame and criticise me for everything because he cant be rational. He even moved towards me like he wanted to hit me. What a vile poor excuse for a human being.  They all are. Vile,selfish, poor excuses for human beings!  No need for enemies with a family like this. They are complete and utter assholes!

Doctor called me to tell me about my blood test results

On Thursday morning, I got a call from my doctor telling me that he was calling about my blood test results (if that isn't enough to put fear in you, I don't know what is).

He told me that my iron levels were very low again, consistent with an iron deficiency (ie anaemia), that my vitamin D levels were also low and that my IgE immunoglobulin levels, while still in the normal range, were very high - they should be less than 100 and mine was 90, which signified major allergies. He also told me I needed to make an appointment with his reception to talk about what I needed to do about these results.

So on Friday morning, I called his office first thing in the morning and luckily he had a spot that afternoon (someone must have cancelled because he's never available so easily).

I saw him and told him I looked up high IgE immunoglobulin plus low iron results and that one of the possible causes (other than severe allergies, asthma, eczema, arthritis) was cancer of the blood and he told me that it definitely was not that, that it was simply due to my severe allergies and was still within a normal range. That reassured me quite a lot as I had been stressed about it from looking it up the night before. My gut feeling told me it wasn't anything as serious as that, but still, I worried.

My doctor told me I needed iron and vitamin D supplementation. He also said that the allergies I have to synthetic chemicals is very hard to treat, but that I had to see the allergy specialist who could give me further advice and treatment options.

I also showed him one of the videos of my family's abuse on Tuesday night and he agreed that it was an abusive and violent situation I was living in. I asked him if he could change the letter he wrote previously to make it clear that I have multiple chemical sensitivities, severe allergies and that the situation with my family makes it all worse. He did it for me, which was nice of him.

Violence, abuse and total denial abound

There really is something fundamentally wrong with the mental facilities of all the people in my immediate family - mother, step-father, brother - they do not ever behave like normal people.

I keep telling them I have multiple chemical sensitivities, which means I am allergic to just about everything and cannot tolerate synthetic perfumes/chemicals/cigarettes as my body reacts by making me have severe allergy symptoms, sinusitis, sore head, itchy nose, sore lungs and difficulty breathing.  I have been diagnosed with this condition, so it's not just me saying this without having an official medical diagnosis. But, their son continues to use his strongly perfumed body care and hair care products and tells me to "fuck off" and that he can use whatever he wants and I can just "fuck off" if I don't like it. What an obnoxious infantile idiot he is!

I beseech my parents about giving him alternative products, but they simply wont do anything much about it, when they know what I can/cant use.

Yesterday, again I told my mother she has to give LayZ boy some alternative things to use and not let him use his products and she said something to him (in a very off-handed way), as he was passing through the kitchen and again, he said, "I'll do and use whatever I want do do, she can just fuck off, the loser, fucking idiot". And then he left. What an imbecilic idiot he is huh?  So he knows this stuff makes me sick, but he gives not one iota for my health and then my parents wonder why I avoid him? Geez people, get your heads out of your asses and see reality for a moment!

And because LayZ boy was pissed off with his mother telling him anything about me, he decided to use his products (perfumes, after shave, face creams, whatever) again last night and come into the lounge room (where I was) and start waving around, to try to disperse it through the air to try to make me sick. What a vindictive prick!  I had to leave the lounge room immediately because it was making me ill, even though my nose is still blocked, it still affects me - that's how strong the odour was from his products and that is how sensitive I am.  What an asshole of a person LayZ boy is to purposely do this to make me ill. 

That is my family. And with this non-family I have, I certainly don't need enemies, because they are more than enough to hurt me.

Accusations abound as well as abnormal behaviour from an insane family

On Thursday morning my mother was pissed off because she couldn't find where she put her prescription glasses, some new ones she got from somewhere a few months ago which I really had not seen before.

She told me they were missing and asked me where I put them. What the hell? She (and the others) are always accusing me of things I never do! Idiots!

As if I even knew what glasses she was talking about and as if I would take them anyway! I was really irritated by her false accusations (yet again) and told her neither did I know where they were but I resented her accusations and that she should ask her son where they were or think more clearly about where she misplaced them because I sure as hell didn't know what she was talking about.

She kept insisting, angrily, that I was the only one who could have taken them or moved them! Yeah, right, and that's because I am the only other person living in this house when I am not! Idiot she is!

She kept going on and on at me, telling me it "had to be me" that stole her prescription glasses.

Meanwhile I was trying to make some breakfast and then I realised I had a pair of glasses that I didn't wear in my room, thinking that maybe that was what she was talking about, so I showed them to her. She said that they were not the glasses she was missing, but since those ones were with the other missing ones, I must have taken them! Again insulting me! I told her that I took them from her room with her permission while she was there (and they are my glasses not hers, yet I ask for permission), as if I would take anything else from her room. She kept on insisting and I told her to ask her son or keep looking, because either her son LayZ boy took them or she misplaced them and couldn't remember where.

She also wanted to check my bedroom to make sure I hadn't taken them! The gall of her! She barged in and started looking around. I told her to get out and to stop accusing me of doing something I did not do. She is pissing me off with this obnoxious behaviour of hers. Always blaming me for everything and every time she is wrong because I have never done what she accuses me of doing!  I just cant cope with these idiots!

A little while later, she came back into the kitchen with the prescription glasses, telling me she found them, that they were somewhere else where she didn't search before because she didn't expect them to be there. I told her  to just stop, I didn't care, I didn't want to know and I told her from the start that I didn't take them and she should never have accused me of doing so in the first place. She then had the gall to tell me she never accused me! What the fuck? She is such an obnoxious liar!

I then told her (in very clipped tones) that she did indeed accuse me of stealing her glasses over and over and yet here she is, having found them, now telling me she never accused me of anything. That that was a preposterous, obnoxious and insulting thing for her to deny and that I just didn't want to talk to her any more. Unbelievable! Always bloody lying, Always!

She often misplaces things and doesn't remember where she puts them and accuses me of taking them or moving them and of course I don't. It's just irritating because she gets angry and starts arguing with me about it and then afterwards acts as if she didn't just flagrantly accuse me of stealing her things! It's just ridiculous and outrageous for her to say these things to me!

Then her son's mad behaviour comes to light a short time after that.

While in the kitchen still, I saw LayZ boy outside, with his dark sunglasses on - it's about 5 degrees C outside (and with the wind chill factor, feels more like zero), it's overcast and raining. LayZ boy looks and acts like a mentally deranged person when he wears sunglasses when there is no sun outside, no glare and its raining too! He then wore them inside too - and it's rather dark inside with the darkened sky and no lights, especially in the hallway. He's so abnormal! I commented to my mother that her son LayZ boy is not normal to wear his dark, wrap-around sunglasses outside when its overcast and raining and she responded that "doctors tell you to always wear sunglasses, even if its overcast because of the glare". What glare? It's raining outside, it's not just overcast!  Insane, deluded family! And anyway, he was only walking outside maybe 5 metres at the most and back inside again. He must not have something wrong with his mental facilities (he is sick in the head after all), he's got to have something wrong with his eyes - his smoking must be affecting his circulation to his eyes and they're not functioning properly.

These people are so not normal! In any way, shape or form!