In addition to this, I feel totally and utterly exhausted, drained of all my energy by these three people who call themselves my family.
On top of that, I have been getting these heart palpitations, which became really severe yesterday and last night, where my heart was beating incorrectly it seemed like almost every beat. I would get fast heartbeats for a few beats, followed by skipped beats and then a thumping beat. I have had this investigated previously and apparently I have "ectopic heartbeats" both ventricular and atrial, which means I get a heartbeat starting in either the top chambers of the heart (atria) or the lower chambers of the heart (ventricles) instead of in the sinoatrial node (in the area between the layers of the heart). I have also been having supra ventricular heartbeats, which is when the heart beats very quickly (over 100 beats a minute) but only for a very short duration, like for about 5-6 beats or so. All of this, the cardiologist told me, about a year ago, when I was first diagnosed, points to stress. So it comes as no surprise that it's been happening more and more lately and culminating so much last night, again.
I have also been feeling really tired physically and I feel like I have a bit of a fever for the last few days too, like as if I have some type of a viral infection. I feel quite warm today and really lethargic. This means I have some type of viral infection, but because I don't have any other symptoms (no sore throat, no upper or lower respiratory infection) it could be that my immune system is not functioning very well and I may have chronic fatigue syndrome. All I know is that I get sick like this all the time and it comes after being greatly stressed. I wake up feeling tired and I just want to sleep all day as I have zero energy. Not only am I a little feverish, but I also feel really dizzy, which could be due to the palpitations or it could be due to a middle ear infection (which I get quite often, several times a year) or it could be due to a gastrointestinal infection, the last two are definitely due to a virus.
I have been doing a lot more exercise these past three weeks. I started at 45 minutes a day, but now I am at 70 minutes a day. I have been walking up and down hills for about 45 minutes and then for about 25 minutes I do arm and leg exercise (Pilate's basically) to tone them up. I have noticed a difference in my body, but I think I have been over-doing it. I have been totally and utterly stressed by my family and I am putting more stress on my body with the daily exercise but not doing anything for stress-relief (like meditation or yoga or relaxation), which means my body is just getting overly stressed in every way with no respite, with too much pressure to bear all at once. Hence the heart palpitations and the fever and lethargy.
These people are literally draining all the energy out of me. I just need to get out of here, but with no energy, no money and no motivation, how can I????
