Violence, abuse and total denial abound

There really is something fundamentally wrong with the mental facilities of all the people in my immediate family - mother, step-father, brother - they do not ever behave like normal people.

I keep telling them I have multiple chemical sensitivities, which means I am allergic to just about everything and cannot tolerate synthetic perfumes/chemicals/cigarettes as my body reacts by making me have severe allergy symptoms, sinusitis, sore head, itchy nose, sore lungs and difficulty breathing.  I have been diagnosed with this condition, so it's not just me saying this without having an official medical diagnosis. But, their son continues to use his strongly perfumed body care and hair care products and tells me to "fuck off" and that he can use whatever he wants and I can just "fuck off" if I don't like it. What an obnoxious infantile idiot he is!

I beseech my parents about giving him alternative products, but they simply wont do anything much about it, when they know what I can/cant use.

Yesterday, again I told my mother she has to give LayZ boy some alternative things to use and not let him use his products and she said something to him (in a very off-handed way), as he was passing through the kitchen and again, he said, "I'll do and use whatever I want do do, she can just fuck off, the loser, fucking idiot". And then he left. What an imbecilic idiot he is huh?  So he knows this stuff makes me sick, but he gives not one iota for my health and then my parents wonder why I avoid him? Geez people, get your heads out of your asses and see reality for a moment!

And because LayZ boy was pissed off with his mother telling him anything about me, he decided to use his products (perfumes, after shave, face creams, whatever) again last night and come into the lounge room (where I was) and start waving around, to try to disperse it through the air to try to make me sick. What a vindictive prick!  I had to leave the lounge room immediately because it was making me ill, even though my nose is still blocked, it still affects me - that's how strong the odour was from his products and that is how sensitive I am.  What an asshole of a person LayZ boy is to purposely do this to make me ill. 

That is my family. And with this non-family I have, I certainly don't need enemies, because they are more than enough to hurt me.

Really bad, virulent flu infection is finally getting better

I have been feeling so sick since Saturday - that is just about a week of feeling so miserable and ill.

I got a really bad, virulent flu infection that had me laid down low in bed for the best part of this week!

The lovely flu virus (whatever strain it was) caused me to have: fever and chills, runny nose, inflamed sinuses (sinusitis), blocked sinuses, headache, sore throat, lethargy, cough, aching bones and muscles.

The coughing was so bad, my diaphragm started convulsing from the severity of the coughing. It almost felt like I couldn't breathe properly, because once I started coughing, I couldn't stop.

The coughing started on Wednesday night and I went to hospital, but after an hour and half of sitting in the waiting room, feeling worse by the minute, I decided to go home because while I was there, only three people had been called in and when I asked at reception, there were still three people ahead of me, so that meant it would take at least another hour and half of sitting there at least (so three hours in all) before I was even seen by the doctor. I couldn't wait that long any more. I decided to go home and take my chances - I would see a doctor the next day instead.

I saw a doctor on Thursday who told me that I had the flu, but now I had a cold. How does the flu virus suddenly morph into a cold virus? I thought that you had the flu and it got better after a week or so of bed rest, fluids, herbal tea and steam inhalation. Doctors! Some of them have no clue, whatsoever!

I felt very weak and lethargic driving to the doctors on Thursday, I didn't have much energy and felt like falling asleep while I was driving. I just wanted to close my eyes, but I didn't. After seeing the doctor, who told me my lungs were clear as was my throat (yet I was so sick), I went to the chemist to get some herbs and vitamins to treat my symptoms. I bought some olive leaf extract syrup (it has known and potent anti-viral properties), some cold and flu vitamins, as well as some honey and lemon lozenges to ease my sore throat.

In addition to this, I had been blowing the junk out of my nose every day, with my sinuses so totally inflamed and hurting, that even my upper teeth started hurting too!

My nasal passages are still inflamed and my voice still reflects the congestion in my upper and lower respiratory systems - it is so husky and deep, one week into having this flu, but at least after taking the supplements from Thursday, my symptoms have improved dramatically!  I went from not being able to sleep much, having lots of head and sinus pain, coughing as if I was about to cough up my lungs, to feeling a lot better.  I am not 100% recovered, but I am much better than I was yesterday morning, so if I continue taking these supplements, I should improve over the next few days.

I have a really bad flu infection

I have been feeling so sick the last few days. I have a really bad flu infection.

It started on Saturday and became worse on Sunday and today (Monday), I still feel totally sick.

My throat got so sore, my sinuses got so inflamed and infected, to the point my teeth are hurting me, I have a bit of a cough, my head really hurts, I have a fever, I feel totally lethargic and my bones hurt. All this yucky yellow and red (blood) stuff is coming out of my nose that I have to spit out in a tissue. It's so gross!

I was sleeping most of the day on Saturday and Sunday as well as today. I didn't do anything else but lay on the couch and watch TV, drifting into sleep every so often on the weekend. Today, I spent most of the day in bed with the heater on and the cat at the foot of my bed.

I was quite hot and feverish last night and I have sweated through my pyjamas today that I had to have a shower to feel clean again.

My head just hurts so bad and my energy levels are so low.

I just came online today to check email and check some other things, really quickly and write these posts, but now I am so exhausted. I feel like I have run a marathon! I need to go back to bed!

Still feeling sick, but at least nice looking guys abound

I am feeling really sick again today and while I do not feel like going anywhere, I have a bill to pay (which I am late paying, as I forgot about it and need to pay today to avoid a late payment fee) and so I need to go to the post office. I got dressed and went to catch public transport to get to the city. While it is not windy today, it is rather cold, so that doesn't help me, being sick.

Yesterday, when I was catching the bus home, there was a really nice looking guy in a beanie waiting at the bus stop and there were also many other people too, but I noticed him because he was handsome. He also happened to catch the same bus as me and sat directly in front of me with his father who just happened to be on the bus. This guy was really tall - maybe about 6 foot 5 inches or so. Very very male and very manly, but he seemed like a really nice guy. That's the vibe I got from him when he was talking to his father. I took furtive glances at him in the glass windows, but I think he caught me one time. So if he caught me, he must have been looking at me too.

I thought I looked totally awful yesterday because I felt sick, but when I came home and saw my reflection in the mirror, I realised I looked nice, albeit looking a little tired.

Today, when I went to the post office, who did I see waiting in line, but the same guy! What a coincidence that was. He got served and went out really quickly, he didn't wait around as he was in a hurry (I heard him tell the person at the counter that he didn't put in enough money in his parking meter and was worried that he may get fined). I didn't really want him to see me today, because I didn't look that good today.

What a nice thing that was, to see the same guy two days in a row. Maybe I will see him again when I am feeling and looking much better?  How unexciting my life is that I get a thrill from seeing a good looking guy two days in a row!

Viral infection rears its head again

Yesterday I had to catch public transport back home and as it was rather a windy day, it was not such a good day for me to be walking around, because high winds cause a lot of pollen, dust and other things to be in the air and it's not good for me when I inhale it through my nose or mouth.
My body cant handle dust, pollen and other small particles, as they get caught up in my sinuses and lungs and make my sinuses hurt (I get pain in my frontal sinuses), my ears start to hurt too because for some reason those little particles must get in my ears too and clog them up as well and my lungs hurt too, inhaling those particles irritate my lungs and cause me to cough more and all of this causes an allergic reaction.  In addition to this, the air pressure changes when there are high winds and that also affects my sinuses by making them more sore and more prevalent to infection.

When these little particles clog up my airways, the airways get irritated, inflamed and this allows any lurking viruses to invade, because my immune system is not functioning properly and so the pathogens (viruses) can easily enter, unhindered, where they can multiply and cause infection. Obviously because I haven't been feeling at all well lately, there are always viruses around, ready to invade and infect me more, so doesn't take much to get me sick.

By the time I got home, I was feeling very lethargic and ready to lie down and sleep.  My lungs were quite sore and I was coughing a lot - the bronchitis cough. My sinuses were also sore and I was getting sharp pain from my ears, especially my right ear.

Today, I feel really sick again, even though I slept for about 10 hours last night - obviously I needed it, after not sleeping enough yesterday.