Still feel really sick today

I woke up earlier this morning to take my antibiotics and then went back to sleep as I just didn't feel very well at all - my sinuses are hurting me, my head hurts, my lungs hurt, my throat hurts, my ears hurt and it all feels really congested in my upper respiratory area. I still felt dizzy and nauseous and weak.

I have the "asthmatic cough" again, which means the bronchitis has been triggered yet again by last night.

I was also feeling hot and cold last night - just a bit of a fever too.

I have an appointment with my regular doctor today, so I will explain all of this to him to try to get an appointment with an allergy specialist.

When I went into the family room in the morning to take my antibiotic (I have to take one every 8 hours for the tooth abscess), my mother and step-father were there, she was kneading some dough and he was sitting on a chair watching television. I took the antibiotic with some water and on my way out of the family room, my step-father goes to slap my backside as I am walking past time in a playful, angry way. He's so inappropriate. I got out quickly and he didn't touch me. But he acted like he was about to - with my mother in the room too. Sick sick sick people!

At the doctor's appointment, I told him all about my super strong allergies to everything, that I have been getting so sick lately with upper respiratory viral infections almost non-stop since the beginning of the year and that I just feel so tired all the time. He told me he could hear the congestion in my voice, so that was validating. He also referred me to an allergy specialist. I told him about my idiot family and their inability to understand that someone can get allergies as bad as me and that all this sickness I have been subjected to has all the worse since I cam back from the coast in late-November 2009 and had to live in the same house as all of the abusive family I have around me every day.

When I finished there, I had a bit of shopping I had to do and then I went home.

I prepared some food for dinner. My step-father was in the kitchen and then LayZ boy came into the kitchen as soon as he knew I was home. He has this weird obsessive need to be around me and antagonise me when he knows I am here. He then said to me, "loser, are you going to ask me to take off my jacket?" as his way of greeting. I just ignored him and held my nose while I was in the kitchen. I took my food into the lounge room, away from them, to be able to eat in peace and quiet.

After dinner I went to my bedroom, as the television in the lounge room isn't very clear, plus I wanted to turn my heater on and get warm. I turned on the computer for a short while and then I had to have a lie down - I was exhausted from doing the shopping, making dinner and eating it, that I had to sleep.

I fell asleep for about 1.5 hours and when I awoke, I felt completely exhausted but I forced myself to get up because if I kept sleeping, I would wake up in the early hours of the morning and wouldn't get back to sleep for ages and wreck my internal body clock even more.

It's now 10pm and my head still hurts, my sinuses hurt, I still feel dizzy and nauseous and lethargic and weak. Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow!

Feeling nauseous and sick since last night

Last night, I decided to give my legs a good massage, which I did for about 20 minutes. I did this to try to stimulate circulation in my legs, increase toxin release through the lymphatic system, reduce fluid retention and just warm up my lower extremities as it is rather cold here.

I massaged each leg vigorously with the chopping hand movement, pinching the skin (not hard, but enough) and rubbing each leg up towards the heart.  I did each leg separately and then both legs together.

By the time I was five minutes into it, I started getting really hot and had to turn off the heater and take off a few layers of clothes (I was dressed in long sleeved tops with a tank top underneath), so obviously I was stimulating my circulation really well.

When I finished it, I felt almost exhilarated and very warm all over. My legs felt so light when I finished that when I went for a walk out of my room and into the kitchen, it almost felt like I was walking on air, as if my padding was cushioned when I walked.

About two hours later though, when I went to bed, I started to feel extremely nauseous, my head started hurting, I felt very light-headed and dizzy. In fact, I felt very "off" physically.

While I was trying to sleep, I felt like I was hallucinating, because while I was falling asleep and dreaming, I was actually moderately awake, so I was aware of the dream-like sequences going on in my head, but because I was almost awake, it felt like I was just imagining these things myself, thinking I was actually awake and wondering why I was imagining and seeing all these totally unrelated and bizarre things in my head, so it really felt strange. This went on for a little while and when I realised what was happening, it allowed me to relax and just go with it, which enabled me to finally lose consciousness and properly fall asleep. I am not sure how long, as I don't use a digital clock in my bedroom, but eventually I fell asleep.

When I awoke this morning, I still felt very nauseous, light-headed and dizzy, but at least the headache was not present. I tried on my trousers, which felt looser than normal, so obviously the massage did help to stimulate my lymphatic system to remove any excess fluid in and around my cells.

I also think the vigorous massage must have worked so well and stimulated my lymphatic and circulatory systems so well, that all the toxins in my cells must have been released all at once into my bloodstream and that release is what has been causing me to feel unwell. I did have a glass of water last night and that made me feel a little less nauseous, so I just need to keep drinking more water to flush out the toxins out of my system.

Feeling dizzy and unwell again today

When I woke up today, I did so with great difficulty. I felt so exhausted and it felt very difficult to move my body. 

I had the alarm set for 9.45am, but when it went off, I changed it to go off at 10.45am instead and even though it went off every 20 minutes, I didn't get out of bed until about 1pm. So tired and feeling sick.

I found it very difficult to get to sleep last night. All of the nonsense with my brother upset me more than I realised and thinking about them all and the fact that I have absolutely no relationship with any of them upsets me a lot too. It's very difficult to live in the same house as people who are supposed to be your close family members, but instead who are totally unsupportive and unloving towards you.

Most of today I have been feeling hot and cold, have had the bronchial cough full on again and just feel really exhausted and lethargic. I just want to go to sleep. Earlier, when I was holding the cat in my arms and closed my eyes to rest them a little, I started to sway, like I was about to fall. My ears have been really hurting a lot since last night, so they are probably infected by a virus now too which is probably the reason why my lungs hurt again and causing me to cough. Ugh!

Because I feel so lethargic, I haven't really eaten much of anything today other than two cups of herbal tea (one peppermint, one rose hip), a row of organic dark chocolate and a packet of tangy chips. No wonder I am losing weight as that is not enough food!  I need to warm up the food I had yesterday to eat some proper food to provide me with some proper nutrition.

One good thing about today was that I got to speak to my grandmother to see how she is. My mother called her and I asked to speak to her after she finished talking to her. My grandmother is still in the hospital getting monitored by the doctors because she did have a heart attack, even though it was mild, it still did happen. I told her I was sorry I couldn't come but I have bronchitis and it wouldn't have been a good thing if I came to see her as I was sick. She told me that she could hear my voice sounded congested and not to worry, to take care of myself, she would be okay. I told her she needs to eat what they tell her as her diet is the basis of her ill health in regards to her heart disease. She listens but I don't think she takes much notice. She hears the same thing from my aunt and her husband (who also had a heart attack years ago), but as my uncle said, they cant monitor her eating every minute of the day, they can only do so much, she needs to take care of and responsibility for her own health.