And now the idiot LayZ boy brother of mine was smoking near my room (I had my window open, which I do off and on as I don't know when that idiot will be going outside to smoke near my bedroom) and the smoke comes directly into my room, so that I am uncomfortable. Fucking asshole!
I complain about it and nothing happens. Basically they condone his actions. Un-fucken-believable! And his idiotic mother then goes on to defend his right to smoke where he wants to smoke. And idiot LayZ boy starts deflecting and telling me "what if I smoked on the other side of the house, you would still be complaining", yeah right, because this is all about my baseless complaints not about his idiotic behaviour! Idiot! In addition to this, idiot LayZ boy kept saying to me, "bye bye, go to your room" in a completely dismissive way and neither my mother nor my step-father say to anything to him. They told me to stop complaining about a "little bit of smoke" getting into my room because if it doesn't affect them, then how is it possible to be affecting me? Just because I am allergic to it, that's totally irrelevant to them! They're unbelievable, truly unbelievable!
Then my mother starts telling me that it's because of my complaints about LayZ boy smoking right next to the chickens that he doesn't smoke there much any more (oh right, so it's a healthy and good thing for him to smoke right on top of the chickens and for them to absorb his cigarette smoke every day?) and then she proceeds to tell me that he doesn't smoke near the trees on the other side of the house because I will complain that the smoke will come into the house. Right, so because I sit in my room, I am nowhere near that part of the house, sure it has everything to do with me. More like she told him not to smoke there as his smoke wafts in to where they are sitting in the sun room. It has nothing to do with me as I have never said anything like that to her. She just lies to justify more of her lies. And I am so completely frustrated and incredible upset every day because I cannot ever feel comfortable or safe. Ever! I am on high alert just about all day every day!
I complain about it and nothing happens. Basically they condone his actions. Un-fucken-believable! And his idiotic mother then goes on to defend his right to smoke where he wants to smoke. And idiot LayZ boy starts deflecting and telling me "what if I smoked on the other side of the house, you would still be complaining", yeah right, because this is all about my baseless complaints not about his idiotic behaviour! Idiot! In addition to this, idiot LayZ boy kept saying to me, "bye bye, go to your room" in a completely dismissive way and neither my mother nor my step-father say to anything to him. They told me to stop complaining about a "little bit of smoke" getting into my room because if it doesn't affect them, then how is it possible to be affecting me? Just because I am allergic to it, that's totally irrelevant to them! They're unbelievable, truly unbelievable!
Then my mother starts telling me that it's because of my complaints about LayZ boy smoking right next to the chickens that he doesn't smoke there much any more (oh right, so it's a healthy and good thing for him to smoke right on top of the chickens and for them to absorb his cigarette smoke every day?) and then she proceeds to tell me that he doesn't smoke near the trees on the other side of the house because I will complain that the smoke will come into the house. Right, so because I sit in my room, I am nowhere near that part of the house, sure it has everything to do with me. More like she told him not to smoke there as his smoke wafts in to where they are sitting in the sun room. It has nothing to do with me as I have never said anything like that to her. She just lies to justify more of her lies. And I am so completely frustrated and incredible upset every day because I cannot ever feel comfortable or safe. Ever! I am on high alert just about all day every day!
It's exhausting having to constantly defend myself and my right to have a comfortable existence and to constantly have to defend myself against their abuse and complacence. It is just debilitating to my whole mind and body and spirit. No wonder I get sick, no wonder my immune system is so low, no wonder I cant get my act together. I have no energy to do anything to lift myself from this really low ebb, absolutely no energy and no-one to help me.
I am so downtrodden and ill treated (I know it, I am aware enough, unfortunately to know what is going on) and I just feel like crying every day! Living here with them, I am simply at their mercy and they have no mercy for me, just abuse and intolerance and tyranny. Their behaviour is just deplorable. Just deplorable.
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